Friday, July 17, 2015

Medical Industrial Complex Sinkhole

My father had a minor injury several months ago and went to the hospital. Big mistake. Now he is sucked in and getting sicker and sicker and sicker. I can't save him. I want to. He can't save himself. Maybe there will be a miracle. Didn't an angel release the chains when St. Paul was in prison? Am I correct?

Sure, modern medicine can be wonderful, but . . .

I cry everyday.

Friday, March 27, 2015

Ceremony of Innocence - A Short Review

Finally, finally, I read Ceremony of Innocence by Dorothy Cummings McLean and published by Ignatius Press.

Ceremony of Innocence is a timely smart novel set in Germany. The main character Catriona is Catholic and real, meaning she has warts and flaws. Though it was an enjoyable read, I wouldn't say it was light. In fact, I appreciate the fact that it's a meaty, complex novel without being cumbersome. In fact I'm going to read it again because there are aspects of the story I want to chew over and think about. I want to talk about this book with someone else who has also read it.

No Longer a Pack Mule

I'm in my third home since the beginning of the year. My most gracious friend and her husband said they are grateful they are able to give me a home and told me to feel like their home is my home, and I can stay as long as I need to. That provides me with emotional security, as I can move forward.

My parish and the people in it are being helpful too.

For so long, I felt like I carried the burden of unemployment and financial problems alone. And the relatives who did provide financial assistance also provided lectures and criticism. Hey, didn't they notice the RECESSION and UNEMPLOYMENT and ALL the FORECLOSURES that were going on this country for the past seven years or so.

Now I am not alone anymore.

I've given up a lot, and I know I'll be giving up more, but I do not have to worry about that which I have given up.

My father is in the hospital and said he's depressed. I'm going to call his friends and let them know how he is feeling. I want my dad to feel love and joy.

Last week the doctors and nurses were about to rush him off to emergency surgery. I called for a priest, and the chaplain was paged. A chaplain showed up who was not a priest. We and several nurses stood around my dad and prayed. Then the doctor determined my father did not need surgery just then! Now he is slowly getting better. Actually the chaplain gave me much emotional support.

Monday, March 9, 2015

Respecting Boundaries, Respecting Privacy

Boundaries, People, Boundaries.

Boundaries are healthy.

You can't just go willy-nilly wherever you feel like.

I'm talking about this story:

Maybe next time I'm on a commercial airplane, I'll self-identify as a pilot. Do you think they'll let me in the cockpit?
Why not?
Because I'm NOT a pilot.
Would that be safe if I just marched into the cockpit?
No, even though I'm harmless.

Maybe when I go to England, I'll just wander into the private quarters of a castle because I feel like a princess.
Do you think that will be allowed?? Ha.

Then one day I'll self-identify as a surgeon and stroll into an operating room without scrubbing away all the germs. Never mind that I've never taken an anatomy class in my life.
Is that okay?
Why not?
It puts the patient at risk.

I mean, I've worked in offices where I needed security badges because of confidential information that I worked with. There were no naked people, open wounds, or navigational equipment.
So why is it okay to let anyone into a place where people are naked and vulnerable???
It's not.
Some actions are simply not appropriate.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Things are Heavy

I have a lot of things, which my friends moved and I moved. I am renting a room for the time being. I am a roommate People are nice.

I need to shed more things and be free of the burden things create.

Some people can't believe the things I left behind or gave up. I still have plenty of things left.

How can you soar when you're weighed down by things?

You can't.

Right now a child is in the house visiting his parent and making some noise. There's life in this house. If it's too noisy I can close the door to my room, but life is nice.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Asking for Help - 2

The Holy Spirit is moving people. I have rec'd some help, and have some options now that I didn't have a day or two ago. Not only are people ministering to me with offers of this and that, but in doing so they are ministering to my discouraged heart. The Light of Christ is shining through people.
Yes, Mary & Joseph had lodging issues. They sure didn't plan to relocate to Egypt I bet.

Father's homily yesterday was one I needed to hear. I told him so on the way out.

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Asking for Help - Part I

Today I sent out an email to a list of people and friends in my real life asking if they can help me find a place to live. If I were braver, I would ask if I can live with them. I hope they can read between the lines.

Also, I caught up reading Becky's blog at I should have checked it earlier because there is a mom and a family who needs prayers and practical help too.

In response to to my previous post, I rec'd the comment way below (in blue text) from Anonymous about sending money to San Felipe de Neri Parish; 2005 North Plaza NW, Albuquerque, NM 87104 It's not typical of fund-raising efforts and I doubt it is official church communication, but it came from someone who cares about this church.
Funny, because there are only two or three people who know my real name connected to this blog. None of them are from New Mexico.
I don't think any of them know of my connection to Albuquerque.
I have visited this church below. It has a long great and great history. I've spent several Christmas Eves celebrating in and around this church.
I have taken photographs of this church. It's in the Old Town part of Albuquerque.
In fact I feel a connection to this church and other parishes and places in that city.

So if you feel like helping out some parishes and an abbey, send money to
San Felipe de Neri Parish; 2005 North Plaza NW, Albuquerque, NM 87104mailing address: PO Box 7007, Albuquerque, NM 87194


San Martin Roman Catholic Church
8321 Camino San Martin SWAlbuquerque, NM 87121(505) 836-4676
I have attended Mass here. 


Our Lady of the Most Holy Rosary5415 Fortuna RoadAlbuquerque, NM 87105
Celebrated a number of Christmases at this parish. My parents were very active in this church. My mother's wake and funeral Mass was at this church. The love and PRACTICAL help of the people of his parish when my mother died was so very, very great and beautiful.


The Norbertine Community in New Mexico
Santa Maria de la Vid Abbey
The Norbert Community serves the Our Lady of the Most Holy Rosary.
5825 Coors Blvd, SW
Albuquerque, NM 87121-6700
The Abbot of the Abbey is Right Reverend Joel. He was the pastor of Holy Rosary. I remember one of his Christmas day homilies about evil and the name HEROD. I wish I took notes. Fr. Joel also offered a great big hug the Christmas right after my mother died. I cried through the entire Mass that Christmas. As people were leaving Mass and treating Father, I said to him, "It feels more like Good Friday than Christmas"
Fr. Joel said, "It's [grief] just so raw."
That was the right thing to say.

Maybe I'll write more about Holy Rosary parish and its people another time. I'm glad the Norbertines have an Abbey now. I would like to visit it sometime.

if you'd like to send me money, um, I guess just email me.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I want MONEY!!!

(and working families are who I want it from!!!)

San Felipe de Neri Parish; 2005 North Plaza NW, Albuquerque, NM 87104

mailing address: PO Box 7007, Albuquerque, NM 87194

Pastor: Rev. Dennis Garcia

Deacons: Jose Lucero, Maurice Menke, Tom Perez, James Carabajal

Religious education: Melany Gallegos, Director
School: Jennifer Mason, Principal
Museum and Gift Shop: Steve Torres Manager (convent bookstore on-site)

mailing address: PO Box 7007, Albuquerque, NM 87194

Pastor: Rev. Dennis Garcia

Deacons: Jose Lucero, Maurice Menke, Tom Perez, James Carabajal

Religious education: Melany Gallegos, Director
School: Jennifer Mason, Principal
Museum and Gift Shop: Steve Torres Manager (convent bookstore on-site)